Do you know that feeling when you feel unsatisfied?
when you constantly feels like you're not good enough, not kind enough, and you don't know which one you want, help or ignorance?
When sometimes you just want to live in peace,
you don't want to bother anyone's business and you hope that no one will bother yours too.
But it sucks to be ignored.
You're tired of trying to smile and agree to what everyone says about you, all for the sakes of living in "peace".
But deep inside, you know that they don't know that much about you, who you really are, what you really feel, what you want to be, simply because you never really let anyone in. Or because you are used to not showing your actual feelings, to avoid being too involved and getting hurt, to avoid being lied to & most importantly because you know that no one really cares.
You know that it would be a lot better if you could just run away full speed to someone that you can rely on, someone that would actually care.
and you've been looking and waiting the whole time.
But wouldn't it be so selfish to keep asking for help and not willing to actually give help? to start caring about others?
It hits me, big time that maybe I'm not the only one feeling this way.
Wouldn't it be a lot easier if we start listening to others, and start to try to actually care about what they feel?
Then maybe, you could find someone who have mutual thought and feeling.
The thing I can't figure out is how to start doing so.
Easier to tell than to actually do.
Hmph, should be going to school naw daagh